Come to Work on your Birthday!

Don't get upset, just take this as a sign that your time in this same place is expiring.

The despair of my last birthday

Last Year's Birthday

Last Year on my birthday I cried. I did my best not to. I tried starting the day off grateful but I didn't even get to leave my home without being triggered. I remember going to Manhattan Bagel where I got the worst bagel ensemble I’ve ever tasted. Then I headed for the spa to get a facial, which I came late to and the lady cut my time! The money I paid- down the drain. After that I went for ice cream and it was raining. The rest of the day I spent at home, trying to keep it together. Trying not to cry at the state of my life. I ended the day in tears and woke up the next day in tears again. I cried so much I accidentally poked myself in the eye with my nail and to this day, about a year later I can feel its impact from time to time. But yet- I tried!

... I literally cried good tears! Just reading my journey over the past year and seeing all the deliverances and all the elevation that God has been doing spiritually with me - it's crazy!

Let me give you some of the back story - at that time I was unemployed. An evil woman and my pride cost me my job at the beginning of that year. So by the time it was my birthday, I was budgeting unemployment money to find something to do. At that time I was still struggling with co-depency and seeking validation from others. God was bringing me out of it but the absence of people around me was really getting to me. I sat down and felt so alone! Like I had no one. I later realized I felt that way because of foundational spiritual issues that I'm still coming out of. Throughout this past year, many deliverances have come forth that confirms what I’m telling you. I can't wait to expound on this topic!

The joy of my current birthday

This Year's Birthday

Fast forward to this present moment- not much has changed, but much has changed. Despite the fact that I’m still struggling to get out of this financial choke hold I’m in- I’m optimistic, Despite the fact that I'm still by myself, I am hopeful. My mindset has changed so drastically and now I truly have peace about everything. I now see all of this as part of a necessary process. When I come out of this, I will be pure gold. Thankfully God has done this and has elevated my mind. He has also sent me destiny helpers! This year I was so overcome with gratefulness I literally cried good tears! Just reading my journey over the past year and seeing all the deliverances and all the elevation that God has been doing spiritually with me - it's crazy!

It makes me so happy that I stood my ground when my job tried to get me to come into work for my birthday! All because the state is in the building and they need all directors in-house. Mind you, the state would never come to me and ask me for anything- that's the nature of my department. I did not come in but I still had to show my face at this Physician Dinner- at least I got a free 3-course meal!

However, this has highlighted my personal problem with working for someone. I just can't. Can you imagine being a grown-grown woman and someone telling you you can't take certain days off??? Or let's talk kingdom….how will you work effectively if you're a slave to a 9-5! You have to schedule time around them to pray, fast and do kingdom work….No, just no! You can not limit me like this.

What next year will bring...

This time around next year!

This year I am fully realizing- I just don't belong here...

One thing I promise myself - with God as my helper, where I am this year I can not be next year! I just can't. We are made to go from glory to glory. So I went from unemployed to employed, the next stop by March 20th 2025- I must be self-employed!

I can't have no one coming to me telling me what I can do when I can do it while hanging a check over my head. This year I am fully realizing- I just don't belong here. I have been stuck in a place for far too long, a place that is not mine to be in. It is definitely time for me to move out, up and on with my life! So that is my birthday wish. This year, I wish to become the woman God called me to be with no limitations! Amen.

Simply, Bev